Hope

      Hope: "the emotional state which promotes the belief in a positive outcome related to events and circumstances in one's life". I am trying to rediscover this thing called "hope". It gets hard at times, so many people coming in and out of my life, so many people disappointing me, so many things that fall through. Just when it feels like we have found some stability in our lives someone or something comes along and dead legs the hell out of me and I'm flat on my back. Not gonna lie, it's painful. But I do believe this is where hope intervenes. I feel lost...I pray. I look at my beautiful, smart, healthy, funny, HAPPY babies and I have hope. God is good, ALL the time. Not just when everything is right with my world, not just when I feel content. But when I am miserable, I feel like a I'm drowning, He is good through it all, through my despair and sadness, He is good. Hope. That's what it's all about at this point in my life. I don't have many things to hold onto these days. But I am going to hold onto the hope that reassures me this is just a storm, that when this all blows over my daughters and I are going to be surrounded by immeasurable amounts of sunshine.