My Little Miracle

       I will never forget the exact moment I found out I was expecting my first child. I was 20 years old, not married, a party girl who had just gotten back from New Orleans and I was in complete shock. I was terrified. When I walked out of the bathroom holding that stick, my face must have given me away because my boyfriend knew the answer before I could utter the words.
      I am going to be brutally honest and admit that the thought of aborting crossed my mind. I just didn't know how in the world I, Jessica Renee McGlothin, was supposed to be a mom. I wasn't ready, it wasn't planned, I felt trapped. The decision to keep my baby is one of the best decisions I have ever made.  I got married, grew up, settled down and on February 28th, 2008 I gave birth to a perfect blonde haired, blue eyed flawless baby girl. The moment I saw my daughter I knew I would never, ever be the same. She consumed me, in the best way possible. I knew right then and there that that was what I was created for. My calling was to be a mother and since that day I have never looked back.

       My sweet little miracle baby is now five years old and blossoming into the most beautiful, intelligent, funny, feisty, caring, affectionate, considerate little lady. When I look at her I feel so many emotions. I feel blessed, I feel proud, I feel grateful. That little person changed my life and there will never be a day that passes that I won't thank God for entrusting her to me. Happy birthday to one of the true loves of my life. I am so incredibly proud to be your mother.

A little Thing Called 'Trust'

       We don't have to understand. All we need to do is trust. This has been my sweet family's anthem the past few weeks. We've cried more than we've ever cried. We've mourned more than we've ever mourned. We've cried out more than we've ever cried out. But even through the darkest, deepest valley...He is still there with us. Comforting, guiding, reassuring, listening. I've listened to this song hundreds of times and each time is more reassuring than the last:

The pathway is broken and the signs are unclear
And I don't know the reasons why you brought me here.
But just because you love me the way that You do
I'm gonna walk through the valley if you want me to.

No I'm not who I was when I took the first step
And I'm clinging to the promise Your'e not through with me yet.
So I'll follow these trials that bring me closer to You
And I will walk through the fire if you want me to.

And it may not be the way I would've chosen
When you lead me through a world that's not my home
But you never said it would be easy
You only said I'd never go alone.


So when the whole world turns against me
And I'm all by myself
And I can't hear you answer my cries for help
I'll remember the suffering that your love put you through
And I will walk through the darkness if you want me to.

So when I cross over Jordan, I'm gonna sing, I'm gonna shout
I'm gonna look into your eyes and say, "You never let me down."
So take me on the pathway that leads me home to You
And I will walk through the valley if You want me to.
Yes, I will walk through the valley if you want me to

Amen, right? I'm not a perfect Christian. I screw up, I fall down, I curse more than I should, I don't read my Bible as much as I should but I tell you what, friends: I will always trust  Him and I will always find comfort in the fact that He has a plan for our lives.  

A Parent's Prayer

A Parent's Prayer

When a child is apart,
even for a little while,
a parent says a prayer.
We ask the Lord to protect…
to be where we cannot be,
to go where we cannot go.
In Him we place our trust,
for He sees, He knows.
Though how your heart must break,
parted for now from your little one,
know that the Lord keeps your little one safe,
with Him, where we all belong.
He will keep your child in a loving embrace,
just as He keeps you, a child, too.
That is His answer to a parent's prayer,
that is His love --
forever, everywhere. 

In Loving Memory of Lucy Dair Weathersby 

Little Snowdrop
The world may never notice
If a Snowdrop doesn't bloom,
Or even pause to wonder
If the petals fall too soon.
But every life that ever forms,
Or ever comes to be,
Touches the world in some small way
For all eternity.
The little one we long for
Was swiftly here and gone.
But the love that was then planted
Is a light that still shines on.
And though our arms are empty,
Our hearts know what to do.
Every beating of our hearts
Says of our love for you.
~ Author Unknown