He = Hope

      I used to write about my faith a lot. Things got a little rough, my lifestyle got a little rough, and because of that I thought I couldn't write about it anymore. But through the past few months I've come to the realization that no matter where I am in life, I will always, always fall short. But I don't think He wants me to not talk about Him or my love for Him on account of my shortcomings.

      I got a little emo in church this past Sunday. Pastor Fred's sermon was (as usual) just what I needed to hear. I had my little Cam snuggled up tight next to my chest, and when communion started being passed around all I could think about was the hope that we have because of Him. My children are growing up in a dark world, in a broken home, with evil lurking around every corner. But because of Him, because of His sacrifice, there will always be a safe place my children can go to. As a parent, that is soooo comforting. I may fall short, but He never does. It's so amazing to see my children surrounded by such godly teachers at school and at church and hearing about the lessons theyre learning about God's love. He is our light in this darkness, as long as we are constantly seeking Him, we will always have hope. That feels amazeballs, right?! I think so too :)  

Bring It

                                                                           2013.
    Things I am certain are going to happen this year: My sweet Cam is going to turn five. FIVE. She is then going to start kindergarten in August. My baby is growing up before my eyes. Also, my little Lily Belle is  going to turn two. No more toddling and needing Mommy to hold her hand while walking. Speaking of Mommy, I am going to turn 26. That's right, I will officially be closer to 30 than 20. As far as certainty goes, those are the only things I know for certain are going to happen. However, I can tell you this. I am so full of hope for this new year too. So, here are some things I am hoping for: I am hoping for the best year of our lives. I am hoping to be an even better mother than I was last year. I am hoping to excel as a child of God. I am hoping to better myself as a daughter, as a sister, as an Auntie and as a friend.
    I am certain that this new year will be full of ups, downs, all arounds. I am certain that there will be tears, giggles, spankings, hugs, kisses, boo boo's, scrapes, bruises, laughter and love. I am hoping to handle it all with grace and I am hoping to put all the pain we endured last year in the past and to not necessarily forget about it, but to learn from it and move the heck on. I want to be present (physically of course) mentally, spiritually and emotionally for all of the princess dance parties, snowball fights, fort building, attempted camping trips, dress up throw downs, water balloon fights and whatever else is certain to get thrown my way this year. This is our crazy life and I wouldn't want it any other way. Happy New Year, friends. Embrace the now, love those who are here in the present, remember those we loved in the past and forge ahead into the unknown.